Well I did it. I packed up my life and cleaned up all the memories from dear Plymouth 2. I said good bye to some of my favorite people in the world and waved goodbye to the blurry Y before dissolving into a puddle of tears. Now I must face going home. Home....a place I was so terrified to leave and wanted so desperately to stay forever. What happened? Why am I so upset at the thought of returning?
The fact is BYU is an amazing place and being able to call it my home has been the most wonderful blessing I could ever ask for. There is not another place in the world like it. BYU has an incredible history....I wont go into details but from the beginning it has been a sacred and holy place. The people who have emerged from this place....ahhhhh there is no way to describe how amazing it feels to be part of it! It truly is the Lord's school. No one else could direct and organize such an amazing place. I didnt understand how special this place was until this spring. After a rather "rocky" journey to BYU I knew what a privledge it was to come here. At the beginning I was surpirsed by how many seemed to not understand what an honor it was to be here...but eventually I was able to look past that and see what this place was doing for ME! The inspired teachers who taught with the spirit, the uplifting friends and people I met every day, the beauty of the mountains surrounding the campus and the constant reminder that we are all part of this amazing work that is just bursting forth.
The amount I have learned and grown here is incredible to me. I feel like I have changed miles and years since the first day I came here.. So I guess that is why I dont want to leave. I am afraid to leave this place where I am growing and changing so much. But thats not what BYU is about. I would love to be surrounded by amazing and inspiring teachers and people all day long. But that is what heaven is for....this is Earth. So for now my duty is to share all that I have learned and become while here. It would be selfish to stay here and keep feasting from such magnificent expericnes and people without ever planning on doing anything with my learnings. "Enter to Learn, Go Forth to serve". Now is my time to "go forth". The real world is waiting for me....as much as I want to continue hiding from it. And right now my real world is my home in Sacramento. What I retain from BYU is up to me. I can make every place as good a learning experience as BYU if I have the right attitude and discipline, right? So for now I will thank BYU for what it has been for the last 6 months for me...the greatest blessing ever. It is such a special place and I have been so blessed to be here even for this short time. For now I must bid farewell to it....at least for 2 years. Its not good bye forever though! I can eventually come back! I truly think heaven will resemble BYU. So that is something to look forward to! That will be a BYU I never have to leave. Thank you you beautiful school! I will be forever indepted to you.
No doubt about it- I'm gonna miss this place
The safety of the surrounding mountians
The dreamy creamery ice cream
Midnight escapades to the park
Weekly roommate Temple trips
Walking on campus for church
Nightly hot tub trips
Hot dog fridays at the pool
Almost dying walking up the million flights of stairs
Watching Alissa sew books
The patchwork family room wall
Roommate prayers
The sound of Vanessa getting home from work
Taco Tuesday with the funniest people ever
The panic that consumes me while walking past the windstow
Late night talks with Alissa
Trash runs
and so many more
The day it all began. So much anticipation |
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The cutest little town. Night of fireworks, terror and this adorable little house. |
Tie modeling in the Tanner building. This building is the best. Great place for midnight sardines games and kissing rugby. |
We had the happiest door in all of liberty! |
This is Alissa. I could go on forever trying to help you comprehend how amazing she is. Just trust me in that she is. |
Starring in a viral video...I'm sure you've seen it. It's called "Hike the Y"- look it up! I assure you you'll be very impressed |
#1 thing to do in Provo- rentapuppy.com. This is what pure happiness looks like |
The wonderful days when Ezra was still around- and I could actually eat bread. |
Midnight ER runs- these never got old |
Picnics after food science with these two precious ones! |
The last little bit of snow! They loved me for helping encourage them to take this picture |
Jenny Sawyer- someone who is always brightening my life! |
Temple Tuesdays- best day of the week! |
Last roommate picture- aka...a really horribly sad moment |
P.s. Look what arrived in the mail today! I'm only a tad bit excited/overwhelmed/about to burst-cry-scream-run down the street-sing-jump off mountains :)
Tomorrow will be a good day