Friday, June 21, 2013

Goodbyes, Memories and White Envelopes :)

Well I did it. I packed up my life and cleaned up all the memories from dear Plymouth 2. I said good bye to some of my favorite people in the world and waved goodbye to the blurry Y before dissolving into a puddle of tears. Now I must face going home. Home....a place I was so terrified to leave and wanted so desperately to stay forever. What happened? Why am I so upset at the thought of returning?

The fact is BYU is an amazing place and being able to call it my home has been the most wonderful blessing I could ever ask for. There is not another place in the world like it. BYU has an incredible history....I wont go into details but from the beginning it has been a sacred and holy place. The people who have emerged from this place....ahhhhh there is no way to describe how amazing it feels to be part of it! It truly is the Lord's school. No one else could direct and organize such an amazing place. I didnt understand how special this place was until this spring. After a rather "rocky" journey to BYU I knew what a privledge it was to come here. At the beginning I was surpirsed by how many seemed to not understand what an honor it was to be here...but eventually I was able to look past that and see what this place was doing for ME! The inspired teachers who taught with the spirit, the uplifting friends and people I met every day, the beauty of the mountains surrounding the campus and the constant reminder that we are all part of this amazing work that is just bursting forth.


The amount I have learned and grown here is incredible to me. I feel like I have changed miles and years since the first day I came here.. So I guess that is why I dont want to leave. I am afraid to leave this place where I am growing and changing so much. But thats not what BYU is about. I would love to be surrounded by amazing and inspiring teachers and people all day long. But that is what heaven is for....this is Earth. So for now my duty is to share all that I have learned and become while here. It would be selfish to stay here and keep feasting from such magnificent expericnes and people without ever planning on doing anything with my learnings. "Enter to Learn, Go Forth to serve". Now is my time to "go forth". The real world is waiting for me....as much as I want to continue hiding from it. And right now my real world is my home in Sacramento. What I retain from BYU is up to me. I can make every place as good a learning experience as BYU if I have the right attitude and discipline, right? So for now I will thank BYU for what it has been for the last 6 months for me...the greatest blessing ever. It is such a special place and I have been so blessed to be here even for this short time. For now I must bid farewell to it....at least for 2 years. Its not good bye forever though! I can eventually come back! I truly think heaven will resemble BYU. So that is something to look forward to! That will be a BYU I never have to leave. Thank you you beautiful school! I will be forever indepted to you.


No doubt about it- I'm gonna miss this place

The safety of the surrounding mountians
The dreamy creamery ice cream
Midnight escapades to the park
Weekly roommate Temple trips
Walking on campus for church
Nightly hot tub trips
Hot dog fridays at the pool
Almost dying walking up the million flights of stairs
Watching Alissa sew books
The patchwork family room wall
Roommate prayers
The sound of Vanessa getting home from work
Taco Tuesday with the funniest people ever
The panic that consumes me while walking past the windstow
Late night talks with Alissa
Trash runs
and so many more

Now a trip down memory lane...


The day it all began. So much anticipation



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The cutest little town. Night of fireworks, terror and this adorable little house.

Tie modeling in the Tanner building.  This building is the best. Great place for midnight sardines games and kissing rugby.

We had the happiest door in all of liberty!

This is Alissa. I could go on forever trying to help you comprehend how amazing she is. Just trust me in that she is. 

Starring in a viral video...I'm sure you've seen it. It's called "Hike the Y"- look it up! I assure you you'll be very impressed

#1 thing to do in Provo- rentapuppy.com. This is what pure happiness looks like

The wonderful days when Ezra was still around- and I could actually eat bread.

Midnight ER runs- these never got old

Picnics after food science with these two precious ones!

The last little bit of snow! They loved me for helping encourage them to take this picture

Jenny Sawyer- someone who is always brightening my life!

Temple Tuesdays- best day of the week!


Last roommate picture- aka...a really horribly sad moment



P.s. Look what arrived in the mail today! I'm only a tad bit excited/overwhelmed/about to burst-cry-scream-run down the street-sing-jump off mountains :)
Tomorrow will be a good day


Tuesday, June 18, 2013

This counts as studying, right?

 Oh wonderful last Monday at BYU.... for two years. Such a bittersweet thing. Mostly bitter...still trying to figure out what the good parts are of leaving.

 Besides the fact I get to GO on a MISSION.........!!!!!!! :) :) :) :) !!!!!!!!!
and no finals studying (tearful meltdowns) for two years. Also not too horrible of a thing.

Things to be thankful for on this Monday-
Alissa made gluten free peanut butter COOKIES!
I did my first ever assisted handstand in yoga!
I got to go on a nice long sweltering hot walk and prepare myself for beautiful Sacramento weather...ehhhh
Jennica brought home FREE FOOD!
My FHE family is the best and we got the whole planetarium to ourselves (along with a personalized show)- thanks ADAM!!
Vanessa ever so sweetly sung me lullabys and read to me as I started my nap
I took a nap

and...



This is Sister Burgon, my New Testament teacher. She is exemplifies goodness in every possible way. She made this semester about 10000x better. Not only did she read my almost daily page long emails jammed with questions...but she answered them with about ten times the length! Most dedicated and giving woman I have ever known. Do everything possible to take her class. Just go sit in on it if you have to!
 It is life changing and amazing. I wish I could sit and learn from her forever. Or just live with her. We would be good friends....at least I like to think so.  Best teacher in the world! 

This little princess/rebel one/ "granola" showed me places on campus that have been hiding the last 6 months.



Last day of school happiness.....more of being with Alissa happiness.  :)

Look what I found!



Goodbye BYU love note airplanes off the "big glass building". Mine was so magical that it just disappeared all together!
AND finishing off the day with a little sleepover in the front yard.  Don't worry dad...it only lasted 15 mins before realizing it might not be the best idea ever.
P.S....wearing a square handkerchief dress makes every average day extraordinary!! 

Monday, June 17, 2013

Unless

All the water in the world
However hard it tried
Could never sink the smallest ship
Unless it gets inside

And all the evil in the world
The blackest kind of sin
Can never hurt you in the least
Unless you let it in

Sunday, June 16, 2013

On fathers and drawing


This may look like a card I drew when I was three years old...but this was acutally  todays work of art! My drawing skills have not improved too much throughout the years. 

My dad is the greatest.
Seriously. Who else would plan wonderful adventures for me where I get frostbite and hypothermia? No really. I enjoyed it! I know my life will never be boring with him around. Now that I am away from home I can see my parents reflected in me. I love the things my dad loves. I love the ocean. I love mountains. I love hiking and near death situations. I love chips and salsa late at night and eating ten cookies at a time. I love books- especially old ones that fall apart in my hands. I love slapping my knees when I laugh really hard. I love singing in an operettic voice at random moments throughout the day. I love walking underneath stars at night. I love dissecting music and analyzing Tolstoys characters. I love laughing (maybe not as loud as my dad loves to laugh...). I love big steaks. I love doing things on a whim and "building my wings after I jump". I love my dad. Not just because he taught me to love and appreciate all of the above. But because he believes in me.
Look at those baby faces!!

It seemed like everyday he was telling me that I could do anything- ANYTHING- as long as I believed and worked hard enough. And that has made a huge difference...for me. It didnt matter what new hobby or career path I set my mind on.... in his eyes I was going to be the best at it.
I was going to be the best dancer
The best musician
The best mountain climber
The best chef
The best nurse
The best missionary
The best therapist
The best wedding planner
The best masseuse
The best writer
The best teacher
The best brain surgeon
The best princess
The best "lollipop engineer"
et cetera, et cetera, et cetera
 That is something I wish everyone could have. Someone who whole heartedly believes in them. WOW! What a blessing that was and still is! My dad is the greatest man I know. AND he has the most entertaining laugh you'll ever hear (no lies!)  Happy Fathers Day daddy!

Surprise snow backpacking experience...my summers in a nutshell.  We always survived each one....some how. 
Ahh I can't wait until we are all reunited again!


On another note...this is my FHE father. Daddy Spencer. Also a wonderuful  father.

Aren't him and my mama totes adorbs?!

Monday nights are going to be boring and depressing without this crew!
p.s...Alissa's face hahahahahahaha