Monday, December 15, 2014

The Race

Quit! Give up! Youre beaten! 
They shout at me and plead
Theres just too much against you now
This time you cant succeed
And as I start to hang my head
in front of failure`s face, 
my downwards fall is broken by
the memory of a race.
And hope refills my weakened will 
As I recall that scene
For just the thought of that short race
rejuvenates my being.
A childrens race-young boys, young men
How i remember well
Excitement, sure! But also fear,
It wasnt hard to tell
They all lined up so full of hope
each thought to win the race.
Or tie for first, or if not that,
At least take second place
And fathers watched from off the side
Each cheering for his son
And each boy hoped to show his dad
that he would be the one
The whistle blew and off they went, 
young hearts and hopes afire.
To win and be the hero there
was each young boys desire
and one boy in particular,
whose dad was in the crowd,
was running near the lead and thought:
My dad will be so proud!
But as they sped down the field
Across a shallow dip,
the little boy who thought to win
Lost his head and slipped.
Trying hard to catch himself, 
His hard to catch himself,
His hands flew out to brace,
But mid the laughter of the crowd
He fell flat on his face
So down he fell and with him hope
He couldnt win it now-
Embaressed, sad, he only wished
To disappear somehow
But as he fell his dad stood up, and showed his anxious face,
Which to the boy so clearly said,
Get up and win the race!
He quickly rose, no damage done,
Behind a bit, thats all-
And ran with all his mind and might
to make up for his fall.
So anxious to restore himself
to catch up and to win-
His mind went faster than his ñegs,
He slipped and fell again! 
He wished then he had quit before,
with only one disgrace.
I`m hopeless as a runner now,
I shouldnt try to race.
But in the laughing crowd he searched
and found his fathers face,
that steady look which said again
Get up and win the race!
So up he jumped to try again
Ten yards behind the last-
If im to gain these yeards, he thought
ive got to move real fast
Exerting everything he had
He regained eight or ten
but trying so hard to catch the lead
He slipped and fell again!
Defeat: he lay there silently
A tear dropped from his eye-
Theres no sense running anymore
Three strikes1 I`m out" Why try!
the will to rise had disappeared;
All hope had fled away
So far behind, so error prone
A loser all the way.
I`ve lost, so whats the use, he thought
Ill live with my disgrace
But then he thought about his dad
Who soon hed have to face
Get up, an echo sounded low
Get up and take your place
You were not meant for failure here
Get up and win the race
With borrowed will get up, it said
you havent lost at all
For winning is no more than this;
to rise each time you fall
So up he rose to run once more
And with a new commit
He resolved that win or lose
at least he wouldnt quit
So far behind the others now,
The most hed ever been
Still he gave it all he had
And ran as though to win
Three times he`s fallen, stumbling,
Three times he rose again,
Too far behind to hope to win
He still ran to the end
They cheered the winning runner,
As he crossed the line first place.
Head high, and proud, and happy,
No falling, no disgrace
But when the fallen youngster
Crossed the line last place,
The crowd gave him the greater cheer,
for finishing the race.
And even though he came in last,
with head bowed low, unproud,
you would have thought hes won the race
to listen to the crowd.
And to his dad he sadly sad
I didnt do too well
To me, you won. his father said
You rose each time you fell
And now when things seem dark and hard
And difficult to face,
The memory of that little boy
Helps me in my race
For all of life is like that race, 
with ups and downs and all
And all you have to do to win
is rise each time you fall.

All God wants to do is help us every time we fall! We will fall a lot. But that doesnt matter. We are not in a race against other people here. 

Monday, December 8, 2014

Holaaa!!!

Holaaa!!!

Wow! What a whirlwind of a week! I dont think my mission experience has been very normal...but I have loved all of it! 

Remember how I have already had scabies like 3 times...and never ending fleas and bedbugs and everything else? Well one thing I havent had yet on the mission is lice. I was thinking about that the other day....like...wow what a miracle it is that i havent had lice. Welp..for about a week my little daughter has been complaining about her head itching....I just told her it was normal...we swim in fleas here I am constantly itchy. Then she came out of the shower tuesday morning to say she found a bug in her hair. Oh no....We called our zone leaders to tell them we couldnt come to class because the four of us had to stay home and clean the house and our hair...

But they said they didnt think the lice would be jumping and flying around so fast as to infect everyone in an hour. So we had to go to class. 
And they made us sit in the back about 40 feet behind everyone else.
And no one came over to kiss us or shake our hands. 
And everyone knew. 
And we felt like animals. 
But it was hilarious and we laughed the whole time and then came home to deep clean the house...again
And then i washed everyones hair in that nasty lice cream. 
Then Chely came over to help us clean our hair from all the lice nests and all that....am i grossing you out yet? It was an all day project but we got it down!! Yay! We are lice free! At least for a week..!!

Today we went paintballing in the country. I wasnt super enthusiastic about it at first but once we started playing I kept winning! I won every time against 30 elders! I enjoyed it.

I was able to go with Chely yesterday as she got her patriarchal blessing. She called my president and got permission for me to go! I felt like I was in the temple again. It was an amazing experience. Oh I just love my little Chely so much! We are going to be sisters forever! 

One of the converts here has had lots of trouble with drugs. It had gotten to the point that he was robbing from his mom and anyone else to buy drugs. He wanted to change...but didnt seem to be ablt to have the ability. So we fasted and prayed for him to have a stronger desire to drop his addiction. And Friday night he got completely beat up....they broke his jaw and everything. He had to have surgery and spend the week in the hospital. But guess what...he hasnt taken any more drugs and says the thought of smoking makes him throw up! God works in different ways sometimes....but its always to bless and help us!

I forgot to bring my agenda with me so I cant remember anything else.


See you all February 11th! Can you believe thats only 9 weeks away?! 9 weeks....I wonder how many empanadas I can eat in 9 weeks....

Love you all!

Hermana Orchard

Monday, November 24, 2014

How Crazy

Whoo! Another week has come and gone. How crazy. 
I have my new little wawita and she is so awesome! I have to admit I cried the first few days because I really missed hermana Piriz and Razeira...but the new additions to the house are wonderful as well!!

I went and picked up the baby on tuesday. I thought for sure I would have a gringa this time since I have spent almost my entire mission with latina compañeras...but no! And guess what?! I have a little baby from Gautemala!! My second companion from Guatemala! I love those people! So I am happy! She is the tiniest thing. Hermana Monroy. She reaches about my waist...but she is the sweetest and super smart and wonderful! I dont feel like I am training at all. And we have already seen lots of miracles together. 

Chile is the greatest and I love it so much. I just love this place. This morning we got up at five and went to a farm. It was the uncle of Chely...and we fulfilled my lifelong dream of milking a cow! It was kind of gross. I love Chile!

No more time to write anything else. Other than my leg has been hurting again...So I may be seeing you face to face very soon!

Love you all!

Hermana Orchard

ps...how come no one told me that clayton is getting married?!

Monday, November 17, 2014

Let it be spring again...

HOLLLLAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I greet you from a VERY happy morning in Concepcion....because...I AM STAYING IN HUALQUI!!! After a week of crying at the thought of leaving this week...I`m not! I get 6 more weeks in Hualqui!!! I will be here for Navidad!! I am so happy!!!! 
Sad thing is that my little daughter is leaving! Her training is all finished...she is all grown up and will be using her wings and moving out! I will miss her a ton! We have had so much fun together and she has been so great with me and all the issues I constantly bring haha.
But. 
I`ll get a new daughter! I`m training again! Daughter number 3! I`ll be picking the little baby up tomorrow! I love training! I`m super excited!! 
Also I learned that my first daughter...Hermana Ardnt...is going to be a sister training leader! I am so proud! Oh my little family here in Chile is growing! 

Okay enough of that stuff. 
Oh one more thing! Hermana Razeira is leaving Hualqui too which is super sad because I love her a ton...but Hermana Linu de Peru is coming in her place!! Hermana Linu is my favorite and I love her to death! We have always dreamed about the day when we could finally live together! So I am very very happy!! Hualqui for 6 months!! Ahhh so much love!

Other news...I had to go this morning to the mission home and say good bye to my dearest Hermana Tejerina. It was super hard knowing that I wont see her for years....if that. We cried a lot but ended by just feeling super blessed that I was able to know her and learn from her and have her in my life. One day I`ll get to go visit her in Bolivia. Also hermana Lopez goes home tomorrow too and hermana De Leon! Its all super sad. 

This week was good. I cant really remember anything that happened but it was all good....lets see. 
Nope I dont remember anything. 

My emails will have to be shorter from now on because they shorted our internet time by a half hour. 

But I am good! My leg has been behaving perfectly for 2 weeks now....So I am feeling very hopeful! We`ll see. 

I love Hualqui!
I love Chile!
I love food...especially empanadas and papas fritas and churros con manjar and helado and pan con palta and pescado frito and pollo frito and all the unhealthy foods of the earth!
I love Hermana Piriz!
I love the other hermanas in my casa
I love my Presidente
I love my mission
I love Aracely
I love all the people of Hualqui
I love the sun
I love the roses of Hualqui
I even love a bit more the endless dogs
I love being a missionary!

Hermana Orchard

p.s. Yay for weeks when no drunk men try to enter the house and when our freezing cold shower gets fixed!! 





Monday, November 10, 2014

Roses

Hola Hola from the rose covered hills of Hualqui! 

I think this place gets more beautiful every day. Literally every inch of this land is covered in flowers...mostly roses. All different colors that I dont think I´ve ever seen before. 
The people get more beautiful too every day. I dont think we can know a person without loving them. The more we know a person...know their stories and why they are the way they are...the more we have to love them! I think thats my favorite thing in the world....learning people´s stories and getting to really know them. 

There arent any coincidences in anything. We were walking through a more hidden part of Haulqui the other day. We found this house in the middle of no where...we were trying to contact a reference close by that ended up being fake. Anyways, we saw this man just sitting in a chair outside his house...so we went and talked to him. He started telling us about his life. How his wife left him for another man 5 years ago and stole all his stuff. How his only son died 3 years ago and now he is completely alone. How he had a stoke 2 years ago and cant move the left side of his body at all. He said he just sits there everyday waiting to die. And is mad at God that he is still alive.

I think sometimes its hard for us to find purpose in our lives. When everything goes so wrong...its easy to feel that God has forgotten about us. That He has just left us here to suffer. We meet people a hundred times a day who feel that way. Its hard. Because we are just here..we can only see this moment that we are living right now. We cant see before...or after. And it takes an extreme amount of trust to believe that there IS a plan to all this. God really IS in charge and hasnt forgotten about any of us. There IS a reason for every fall, for every heartache...for everything. And we and our lives and plans are cared for with a detail and love and attention...that we cant imagine! 

That is my favorite part about being a missionary. Sharing with everyone that God really does love us! He cares for us and he is always watching over us. Every moment of every day. And His angels are always around us...and we are never ever forgotten. 

Think of all the little flowers in the world. All the little birds and rocks in the stream...all the little fishies in the ocean. God cares for each of them and knows each of them....and if He will care for each of them with all His perfect love and attention...how much more will he care and love US! His children! And maybe this life is a little hard sometimes (its supposed to be really hard!)...but there is so much good stuff ahead!

For verily say unto you, blessed is he that keepeth my commandments, whether in life or in deathand he that is faithful in tribulationthe reward of the same is greater in the kingdom of heaven. Ye cannot behold with your natural eyesfor the present time,the design of your God concerning those things which shall comehereafter, and the glory which shall follow after much tribulation. For after much tribulation come the blessingsWherefore theday cometh that ye shall be crowned with much glorythe hour isnot yet, but is nigh at hand. D&C 58:2-4
We also contacted a man who was walking in the street....he invited us right into his house. We started teaching about Christ and love and all that. And he admitted that God had indeed sent us...because he was out walking to go kill himself! So our timing was good. God is watching over all of us!
I love my little daughter so much! She is all grown up now and we will probably be seperated this next week...which breaks my heart. She has been my favorite and we have just had a ball together. I think that has been one of the greatest miracles I have seen....the change she has made. I literally do not know a person happier than Hermana Piriz! 
After two wonderful weeks of steriods (wonderful as in pain free....my emotions have not been the most wondeful ...endless crying and laughing attacks...I´m quite the comic show) I will be going off them starting today. So we will see this week how my back deals with that. 
Okay, its time to leave you all. But have a Beautiful week. If you want to make your week more beautiful....look up how to make manjar and eat that,
Love you all!
Hermana Orchard

Monday, November 3, 2014

Day of the Dead

Wow! Can you believe we are in November?!

I can...because I am sweating again and the ocean so close is so tempting...

I experienced my second Day of the Dead here in South America! Last year I was in Mexico for it and I remember we ate tons of bread with chocolate and sugar and they had fireworks going off for 3 days straight (we didnt sleep at all!!) Here in Chile its a little more low key. I actually forgot all about it until we were walking past the huge cemetary we have on our street (yes we have a cemetary on our street) and we were greeted by a huge party! They had bounce houses and cotton candy and emapanadas and completos and churros with manjar and flowers to put on graves. It was the strangest thing ever. Everyone dancing and eating around the graves like we were at the beach! 

But we ate lots of deep fried churros with manjar and enjoyed all of it (yes I gained like 10 pounds the last week....you would too if you were here!!)

It was kind of dangerous at night so we had Aracely spend the night in our house as our protection. She could not protect us from the anger of the children though...when we did not open our door at three in the morning to give them candy....they threw like 20 eggs at our house. All the eggs are fried onto our door and ewverywhere and we cant them off!

We had a pretty mild week as far as people trying to break inside our house. We only had one attempt. Haha we are pretty good at getting our defenses ready now. I can wake up at the sound of a pen dropping...run across the room to wake up hermana Raziera..turn on the light...grab the metal rods we sleep with and make a base with my daughter in the bed of hermana Vawdrey and call the elders...all in about 15 seconds. The elders can arrive in about 2 mins and have our house searched and cleaned out in anouther 2 mins. One call to the bishop...a quick visit from the police... And ten mins later everyone is back in their houses sleeping. Its gotten to become quite the comedy show. Dont worry though...this week we really should be changing houses. Its fun though...the four of us are super unified and there is never a boring moment. Before we go to sleep our joke is "and what time will we be calling the elders and bishop tonight?"

Hermana Razeira had to go on a mini transfer this week...she was only gone 2 days but our little family felt so lost and empty without her. We decorated her room with confetti and balloons and had a little party when we returned. I have learned here on the mission that we just need to celebrate every little thing! Every day there are reasons to celebrate and have parties! There are always sufficient things to be stressed and sad about....so we really just have to amplify the good things and squeeze all the happiness and love out of every little thing we can!

So thursday I got my MRI results back. The mission doctor didnt want to talk to me about it but I got it out of her...
The main doctor of all the missionaries in Chile determined that I need surgery in my spine pretty much immediately. I said I would wait. Sadly Salt Lake is involved now and if they say I have to go...I have to go. But I am okay. I know it is all in God´s hands now and He will do what is best. He knows how long my mission is supposed to last and where I need to be. Its been a good lesson in humility and trust for me. For now I am just enjoying each day as a missionary and a chilean even more than normal!

Every day we meet people on the street who are so hurt in every way. There are always drunks passed out in all different parts...children asking for food and money....people stressed and crying...families torn apart...people without any real sense of love or worth. Its heartbreaking. People need the Lord. They need the healing that can come only through Him. Not just people who arent members...but all of us...we all need to learn to accept our Savior more into our lives. To accept that we arent perfect...and that we dont need to be perfect to have the love of God. He loves us today, He loves us today as we are. With all our inperfections...with all our weaknesses and things we do that we know we shouldnt. He still loves us. And we would be well to love others with this love that God has for each of us. Because we could all use a little more of this cleansing and healing love...in our heart...and in the hearts of others.

I love you all! 
Please do not pray for me. Pray for the people here...they need your prayers so much more than I do. 

Lets make it a great week....shall we! There is so much to be happy about and celebrate!

Hermana Orchard

Monday, October 27, 2014

Vamos ya po!

Hola Familia!

Every week is just a tad more crazy here! This week was no exception. For lack of time (like always) I will just touch on a few brief things. 

So after someone climbed on our roof to break into our house last week we have had an interesting time sleeping. Or not sleeping I should say. All our mattresses have been on the floor for a week now in front of the door and we sleep with iron rods next to our hands. We used to take turns staying awake and listening for noises but that was driving us crazy. We all just sleep very lightly now. Luckily dear Aracely was able to sleep with us every night so that helped us feel better. That and putting hymns on all night and lots of prayers...we made it through the week. Now we have bars on all the windows and a new door.....hopefully that does the trick! We will probably be getting a new house soon though. But its been a fun adventure and has brought lots of hermana bonding time! I seriously love the hermanas I live with! I always love the hermanas I live with but the four of us right now are super close. Its fun. We have lots of fun always! 
I dont know if I have talked about them yet. 
There is Hermana Piriz...from Urugauy...my darling little daughter. She is a calm little thing but loves to laugh and scream with me.
Hermana Vawdrey is the new little gringita from Utah. She is super sweet and learning how to handle my constant singing and pranks. Its fun sometimes to have a fellow american in the house. 
Hermana Razaiera is from Brazil and one of my favorite people in the world! She is hilarious and we have fun planning our trip around south america together. She is also teaching me portuguese! 
I love them all and we are all fully planning on staying in Hualqui together for the next 5 months. 

Well Thursday night we had a fun outing to the city at midnight....because...I had a doctors appointment at midnight? Oh the health system of Chile

I thought I was getting an x ray but it turned out I got an MRI. That turned out to be the worst experience of my life. WHY DID NO ONE WARN ME THOSE THINGS ARE SO HORRIBLE? 
Well I guess for the normal person it wouldnt be so bad. But I walked into a big freezing room alone with what looked like a lit up coffin. I almost fainted when the doctor said I would have to lay inside it. I imediately started panicing but laid down and closed by eyes and tried not to think that the ceiling was 5 inches from my face. As a clausterphobic person it was not fun. It actually turned out to be the worst 40 mins of my life. But I prayed a lot and sang lots of hymns. And when the doctor finally came and got me I stood up and passed up from all the stress. 

oh my...
But I should have the results thursday so we can finally know what this is...after 7 months it will be nice to know. 

We started teaching english classes again! So thats fun! The elders here are also teaching cooking classes...which are hilarious. 

Summer has come and kind of hit us hard in the face. Its actually still spring but the heat is unlike anything I have ever experienced....I dont know if I want to see what the real summer is. But Haulqui is still gorgeous and I love it with all my heart!

Last night my leg was really hurting a lot and there was a lot of drunk men in front of our house yelling and doing stuff. We were all really scared and no one could sleep. Finally everyone dropped off to sleep except me. Between the pain and replays of that man entering my bedroom three months ago...I could not sleep. As my pain and stress grew I started praying really hard. I was pretty sick of weeks without sleep with all the fear and sick of all the bad things that have been happening for so long. I dont like being scared at night and was confused why I was having so much fear. But I started praying and thinking about all my blessings that say I have angels protecting me. And all of a sudden I could feel their presence. Like all the angels just came and surrounded my bed and for a little but I was allowed to know that they are there. I know they are always there....but to be able to really feel them helped a lot. And all my fear was taken away. I dont think I will be scared again. 

Sometimes I wonder why we have different trials in this life. When we try to be good...and things just get worse...its confusing. But thats when we really have to put our faith in God. That He really does have a plan. And we should plan on His plan being completely different from our plan...because about 99% of the time it is. Oh but isnt it just so much more fun that way! Never having any idea what is going to happen....how these crazy situations happen and how they will ever get resolved. But I am getting better at just kind of sitting back and letting God show me all the other plans that He has as surprises. 
The people here have such hard lives. And sometimes I get kind of mad that they have to suffer so much. But I know God loves them so much..because I love them so much. I cant even imagine the love God has for them...and I know He will take care of them when I cannot. 

Can I ask you all the pray for my little Aracely? She is one of the most special girls in the world who has the hardest life. And she needs all the help we can give her right now.

Love you all! Have a great week!

Hermana Orchard